Lost Time

I wonder if I ever disappointed you
as if maybe that's why you left so soon

How could you leave us, how could you leave me
Was there somewhere else you felt destined to be?

All the nights I spent crying, just trying to understand
all the things that happened beforehand

To lead us here, a place so alone
with no intentions of ever returning to home

I worry that things will never be better
you seem to be just like the weather

One moment sunny and cloud free
the next, storms as far as your eye can see

I hope you know I would have done anything
to change the circumstances so we would miss but nothing

To never miss a birthday, Christmas, or any day
please just tell me what I would need to say

I would do all that I can turn things around
to go back in time change your mind about leaving town

Sadly that is not something in my control
no repairs can be done to make this family whole

Truth is you had your shot and you let it go
Slipped right through your hand when you hit the road

I wonder what you did for those 17 years
Did we shed the same amount of tears?

Did you lie awake at night wondering where we were
or by that time was it all just a blur?

Did you mean to choose a life of loneliness
or was that just your way of denying me happiness?

I wonder if you'll ever realize you disappointed me
for stealing away and depriving me all the good times that were meant to be